What Price Clarity

I knew that stepping up screening would bring its own set of challenges and information, and especially gray area.  I wish i meant that my mental capacity was increasing, or that my brain was growing in strength or power.  By gray area, I mean that with more information there is more to consider, more to look at, more choices, and less clarity, at least initially.

I have often found, working in the complications of corporate America, working as a therapist in private practice, and, of course, just being a human being, that clarity can be elusive.  In fact, I have become comfortable in the gray area, the not knowing, but the moving forward, at least with more information.  Usually, clarity comes eventually, in a way that is comfortable and definite.  It comes as a knowing.

I have had a season of screenings, which have resulted in the following:  1. clear ovaries, etc (or as Archie Bunker probably would have said, the crotchal area.)  2. Breast MRI found 3 spots, two left, one right that require biopsy (or as they said in My Big Fat Greek Wedding and my daughter Julia reminded, bibopsie).  3. Genetic counselor and MSK doctors recommend taking out those ovaries, etc and checking the tissue. 

This may bring more uncertainty, but I'll deal.